Post by ~XxLone*WolfxX~ on Feb 18, 2010 16:27:30 GMT -5
I truly believe I have a phobia of failure. If I fail, feel rather hot and aggravated with myself and I don't forget it till seven years later. And even then it might pop up. I take forever to do things because I'm afraid it won't ever be good enough.
Though I've also realized I talk to myself WAY to much. I was arguing with myself the other day, and I got to a point where I was telling myself to shut up. Then I realized what I was doing and felt rather crazy. Maybe it's that conscience. Part of the time it's just me, then there is one telling me I'm a failure, then another trying to convince myself that I'm not, and everyone makes mistakes. Normally it's that first voice though.
Haha... Yeah. I'm speaking about myself and my own voices as though they are other people. But if it's my conscience I wonder if it is me or sort of another...
Kakorrhaphiophobia, that's the phobia. My first name is Kayla. Irony is, as irony seems, I suppose.
I bruised my arm the other day slipping on a toy and hitting it on the crib. At first it was small the size of a dime. Now it's more like two quarters. It hurts because I keep bumping it against things. I also bruised my knee because one of the kids locked another in a cupboard. So I got up and slipped on some pencils. It hurts. Sorta red and splotchy...
I think I'll name the first voice Mrs. F and the other Rebecka. Yeah... Now I'm naming them. Hm...
But honestly. Who DOESN'T talk to themselves? I mean, I suppose I do it a little too much, but I can't really help it, being alone with these kids, or simply just me, I gotta talk to someone. And I'm all there is. See, see? But I did it a little when I lived in another town. When my friends were playing sports I didn't like. I would walk around conversing with myself. Heheh... What fun?
I failed a test and am rather upset with myself. My reaction was odd, physical one that is. It's sort of like when you embarrass yourself, and you get all hot and you blush. I've only done that through embarrassment once. Most of the times it's because I failed, or forgot my homework.
Ya ever get stomach aches because you have a test coming up or something? Headaches? I did when I was going to school. Something important coming up and I fretted over it. Worrying and what not.
Yes. I've decided to become a Psychologist I think. Either that or a Psychiatrist. I think the human mind is rather interesting, even more so one that seems 'wrong' in it's way of thinking.
Did you know it's possible to get addicted to carrots and kill yourself if you eat too many? Yep. It hurts your liver and such. Huh... I had to look it up, because I've been eating a LOT of carrots. I went through a bag of baby ones within an hour one night. But I'm not turning orange yet, so I'm good.
This was random. I needed a little random rant about my issues and problems. Guess that's sort of whining. Though I'm semi-happy, I seem to just want more. Maybe that's just the natural way a human thinks. They have it all yet the want, no, feel they need more. A bit to think about, eh?
Though I've also realized I talk to myself WAY to much. I was arguing with myself the other day, and I got to a point where I was telling myself to shut up. Then I realized what I was doing and felt rather crazy. Maybe it's that conscience. Part of the time it's just me, then there is one telling me I'm a failure, then another trying to convince myself that I'm not, and everyone makes mistakes. Normally it's that first voice though.
Haha... Yeah. I'm speaking about myself and my own voices as though they are other people. But if it's my conscience I wonder if it is me or sort of another...
Kakorrhaphiophobia, that's the phobia. My first name is Kayla. Irony is, as irony seems, I suppose.
I bruised my arm the other day slipping on a toy and hitting it on the crib. At first it was small the size of a dime. Now it's more like two quarters. It hurts because I keep bumping it against things. I also bruised my knee because one of the kids locked another in a cupboard. So I got up and slipped on some pencils. It hurts. Sorta red and splotchy...
I think I'll name the first voice Mrs. F and the other Rebecka. Yeah... Now I'm naming them. Hm...
But honestly. Who DOESN'T talk to themselves? I mean, I suppose I do it a little too much, but I can't really help it, being alone with these kids, or simply just me, I gotta talk to someone. And I'm all there is. See, see? But I did it a little when I lived in another town. When my friends were playing sports I didn't like. I would walk around conversing with myself. Heheh... What fun?
I failed a test and am rather upset with myself. My reaction was odd, physical one that is. It's sort of like when you embarrass yourself, and you get all hot and you blush. I've only done that through embarrassment once. Most of the times it's because I failed, or forgot my homework.
Ya ever get stomach aches because you have a test coming up or something? Headaches? I did when I was going to school. Something important coming up and I fretted over it. Worrying and what not.
Yes. I've decided to become a Psychologist I think. Either that or a Psychiatrist. I think the human mind is rather interesting, even more so one that seems 'wrong' in it's way of thinking.
Did you know it's possible to get addicted to carrots and kill yourself if you eat too many? Yep. It hurts your liver and such. Huh... I had to look it up, because I've been eating a LOT of carrots. I went through a bag of baby ones within an hour one night. But I'm not turning orange yet, so I'm good.
This was random. I needed a little random rant about my issues and problems. Guess that's sort of whining. Though I'm semi-happy, I seem to just want more. Maybe that's just the natural way a human thinks. They have it all yet the want, no, feel they need more. A bit to think about, eh?