Post by *Sinister*Dreams* on Apr 8, 2009 22:52:03 GMT -5
I feel so sick,
I’ve swallowed my heart.
Eaten it alive,
Now I’ve gotta spit out the parts.
What used to be
Can’t come again.
But it’s what is
That hurts and then,
He takes the dullest knife,
Stabs it so it hurts more.
Wrenches it in,
Then watches my blood pour.
In silence I scream,
My loss covering my face.
If only his lies
were just a dream.
Every kiss on his lips I once taste,
Until now my pain showers in ash,
Each beautiful blessing now gone to waste.
Little promises and empty whispers, dead to the last.
Sinking to my knees,
I watch the one who cared for me,
Prove I wasn’t enough to please.
I sicken myself,
As I keep trying to leave.
But I can’t let them go,
These feelings of hurt.
Because without them,
My love away will go.
What can I say?
I feel so sick.
I only hope he’ll end it,
And today
Can start over okay.
I love you so,
But I feel too cold.
What are we doing here?
You’re in that special place,
The one always made for someone else.
And yet my eyes are on your face.
Perhaps I should be someone else.
I don’t know why you’re here
If you don’t even like me near,
But still you’re like a drug,
The type I forget all in it’s hugs.
Like a deadly poison dart,
You hover near,
Breaking all of my heart.
My heart is beating fast,
But it could be it’s last,
If I can’t keep up my boundaries.
Who are you?
Correction,
What are you?
Some type of demon from below,
Or an angel I’ll never know.
I can’t seem to get my head around
Those words you always said,
All I know is you’re the last thing I think about before bed.
When you pull me close to you
Every thought I have is few,
Though within my thick skull
My mind is never dull.
I wish I’d understand,
Why you’ll never hold my hand,
Or why you’re constantly away,
Never will we date again.
The way you touch is like a monster,
An ever growing breathing thing,
I start to wonder where I am,
Yet all my heart can do is sing.
Who are you?
Correction,
What are you?
I always want you here,
Even though you’re what I fear.
Still I have to hold back,
And it’s you I always lack,
The one who fills my heart with lead,
And causes every thought to cease,
Inside of my head.
As you walk away from me,
Don’t forget what you seek.
Someone to numb the pain,
Of being lonely and so weak.
I’m fighting back again,
The need to kiss your full lips,
And I know this sounds so wrong,
But it’s your innocence I miss.
The way you’re scared to break my heart,
Spit out all its parts.
I never want to see you go,
But this feeling is against what I know.
So with confusion on my mind,
I fall down all the time.
Who are you?
Correction,
What are you?
I’ve swallowed my heart.
Eaten it alive,
Now I’ve gotta spit out the parts.
What used to be
Can’t come again.
But it’s what is
That hurts and then,
He takes the dullest knife,
Stabs it so it hurts more.
Wrenches it in,
Then watches my blood pour.
In silence I scream,
My loss covering my face.
If only his lies
were just a dream.
Every kiss on his lips I once taste,
Until now my pain showers in ash,
Each beautiful blessing now gone to waste.
Little promises and empty whispers, dead to the last.
Sinking to my knees,
I watch the one who cared for me,
Prove I wasn’t enough to please.
I sicken myself,
As I keep trying to leave.
But I can’t let them go,
These feelings of hurt.
Because without them,
My love away will go.
What can I say?
I feel so sick.
I only hope he’ll end it,
And today
Can start over okay.
I love you so,
But I feel too cold.
What are we doing here?
You’re in that special place,
The one always made for someone else.
And yet my eyes are on your face.
Perhaps I should be someone else.
I don’t know why you’re here
If you don’t even like me near,
But still you’re like a drug,
The type I forget all in it’s hugs.
Like a deadly poison dart,
You hover near,
Breaking all of my heart.
My heart is beating fast,
But it could be it’s last,
If I can’t keep up my boundaries.
Who are you?
Correction,
What are you?
Some type of demon from below,
Or an angel I’ll never know.
I can’t seem to get my head around
Those words you always said,
All I know is you’re the last thing I think about before bed.
When you pull me close to you
Every thought I have is few,
Though within my thick skull
My mind is never dull.
I wish I’d understand,
Why you’ll never hold my hand,
Or why you’re constantly away,
Never will we date again.
The way you touch is like a monster,
An ever growing breathing thing,
I start to wonder where I am,
Yet all my heart can do is sing.
Who are you?
Correction,
What are you?
I always want you here,
Even though you’re what I fear.
Still I have to hold back,
And it’s you I always lack,
The one who fills my heart with lead,
And causes every thought to cease,
Inside of my head.
As you walk away from me,
Don’t forget what you seek.
Someone to numb the pain,
Of being lonely and so weak.
I’m fighting back again,
The need to kiss your full lips,
And I know this sounds so wrong,
But it’s your innocence I miss.
The way you’re scared to break my heart,
Spit out all its parts.
I never want to see you go,
But this feeling is against what I know.
So with confusion on my mind,
I fall down all the time.
Who are you?
Correction,
What are you?
