The Final Farewell~

[» Sacrifice]

Dear all loved members of the forum Spirit-Cats;

I must say, I never expected this day to come—I never wanted this day to come. I lived in a world of bliss, never imagining this would ever happen, and maybe it is because of that, I can’t seem to comprehend what is actually happening.
Or maybe I just refuse to accept what is going on, it is really hard to tell. In my current state of denial, it really is hard to figure out what I feel. What my true thoughts are, maybe they will come out here, so please forgive me if I ramble too much.

I’ll try to keep this short, and I’ll probably end up failing; feel free to click the back button any time; I can’t say I blame you.
I first joined Spirit-Cats last year in August, after meeting Cloudy for the first time at Girl Scout Camp.
Yes, believe it or not, I was once upon a time, a Girl-Scout. I joined here as soon as a I got home, and I must say I was quite a n00b. Anti-social, hardly able to write a post, my first character being a total sue, thinking about it now, it makes me laugh.
And wince at old posts, but who likes to revisit that part of the past? Lulz.
And over time, and guidance, I managed to learn how to write, warrior cats being my first writing experience.
And that is why this post pains me so much.

I never thought this would have happened. But with the steady general decline, it just is getting harder and harder, people are on less, and I feel really crappy for saying this being one of the managers and all, but I just don’t think I can stay here anymore. I don’t feel the need to come on I once used to, the same devotion that once drove me to post, to make things happen. Now days, it seems all I ever do is log on and look around for maybe five minutes and then log off.

I simply do not have the same will to do this anymore as I once had, and I must bid you a good-bye. And unfortunately, I’m dragging Cloudy with me; maybe I got it from her, this lack of muse, of general excitement to get online anymore.
But I’m not going to point a finger at anyone, in all and all, this is my fault. Are we not all responsible for our own actions? For our own thoughts and motives?
Let’s be honest here; I can’t blame anyone aside from myself, and I’m not going to try to.

I may not have seen this place in its glory days, but when this place was active, when people posted with some sort of regularity, I must say, it was like a second home to me. The place I could escape when life was threatening to drag me down, the place where I could always count on getting a laugh from. Even now, in its half dead state, I can’t help but remember how things once were. Remembering what this place once was like and looking at it now…quite frankly I don’t need anymore help being depressed; I have enough issues it seems sometimes in real-life, I don’t need them in the online world, where I can usually cloak everything.

I don’t know if I will ever be back, and if I do, I probably won’t role-play. I’m not leaving just yet, I’ll be killing off all my high ranking cats because I would rather not have them played by someone else, I suppose you could call me a bit possessive over them still, haha.

There are a few people though, who have really made a lot of memories with me, people that I doubt even in the time I ‘m gone, I’ll ever forget.
Marrow; you never failed to make me laugh in some way. Be it evil eels, shroom eating Marios, or whatever else pops into our heads these days, you have been a constant friend of mine. < 3

Hawkie: I can’t say I talked to you all too often, but we always seemed to end up with siblings, and the plots we always came up with usually either made me laugh or cry, depending upon the actions that were going on. I never failed to jab you when you came online, you’ll be missed. < 3

Dest: Oh deemer of the wet dog, what will I do without your sense of humor? But hey—the chairs will finally smell good again. xD I’ll miss ya bud.

Breeze: We didn’t speak too much, but I really could get along with you. I’ve always been amazed with your graphics skills, and your general attitude. If you read this, know that you won’t be forgotten, and you’ll be missed. < 3

Dream: Oh buddy of mine; you’ve always been a good friend. I don’t know how to describe you, but it’ll be hard to not somehow think of you whenever I find a vague reference to something that was from SC.

Cloud: I won’t miss you; I can see you anytime in RL. xDD

Those are only the people who influenced me the most; there are other people who I will also miss. Who we will both miss.
Yes, I am taking Cloud with me. And for that I am sorry, but in all reality, couldn’t you say you saw this coming? She would post her own farewell…but really I don’t think she would add anything else from what I’m saying; I’m in denial, she is in farewell anyway.

Again, I really wish I didn’t have to do this, that there was some way for this to be avoided. But in all reality, my muse for warrior cats is gone, my general will to even log on every day is gone, and I just need to get away from everything. I have too many things going on right now to actually be able to devote the time, or the will, to Spirit-Cats, and in the end, this is the best. I’ve thought about this for many long nights, and now that I’m writing this out—as rambly as it is—I do feel regret for what I’m doing, but I’m also feeling better, as though a whole weight has been removed from my shoulders.

After all, recently, role-playing has only bee a chore.
No, this isn’t a hiatus. This isn’t a vacation.
This is the end.
This is good-bye.

I wish you all well in your lives, and hope maybe we’ll be able to meet again someday. Maybe we’ll pop in every now and then, but please don’t come looking for us [over the internet of course, creepy stalkers aren’t welcome]; if we want to talk to you, we’ll find you somehow.

Perhaps someday this place will be the way it was once before; and I wish you the greatest luck with restoring the rest of the boards here. I am deeply troubled that I never finished them for you; but it is just something I have to deal with.

And now, I’ve finished my rambling, I hope you all will understand our choices in this matter. Don’t miss us for too long, please, it would only make us feel worse about this. Besides—new members are always nice in filling gaps, eventually we’ll just be more names with all the other inactive managers.

-Sacrifice and Cloudy.
former members and managers of Spirit-Cats.

Thank you for a wonderful time.

[Sacrifice:]

Oh, and if anyone has a PSP, I suggest getting Final Fantasy Crisis Core. Zack Fair is insanely amazing, and I couldn’t leave without at least mentioning his name once. Call me obsessive, a rabid fangirl, addicted, I don’t really care.
Sacrifice out.
Remember, love Zack Fair and I’ll miss you all.
Farewell~ < 33

[Cloud:]
Not much to say here, I guess. Sacri covered most of it. I guess all I have to say is that there’s nobody that I won’t miss, I guess. Maybe I’ll see you all again.
Bye.

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[Marrowbone]

Well... I guess if you guys are leaving the site is dead =C Maybe it's time to just shut it down...

[yellow]

-sobs- We'll miss you Sac. You left a mark on us. I won't forget you. Ever. And Cloud, I'll miss you alot too. I'm actually crying.

[» Sacrifice]

Ah, I love you guys in a none-creepy way. xD

But--

Do you really think I could leave, even if I wanted too? Or Cloud for that matter?

Happy April Fool's Day.

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Sacrifice and Cloudy.

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[yellow]

DARN YOU SAC DON'T YOU EVER MAKE ME CRY AGAIN!!!!

-clears throat- Anyway, welcome back XD. Man, you guys are awesome. But seriously, don't ever do that on april fools day again. Or I will be forced to get Cloud to tackle you.

[Destiny]

...I was THIRD on your list?

C'MON! D< *sniffle*

[Marrowbone]

*Snort* You guys are cruel pranksters >8C But it was a good joke! Bravo! XD Looks like LW wasn’t much fooled.
I wish I could have thought of something more convincing then ‘Noooo, don't leave me! I CAN CHANGE! *Sob*’, though.
And poor Moss and Dest D8

[Destiny]

*grumbles* Stupid Sacrifice, stinking up the place, letting me get all hopefull that we can get new members when it doesn't smell like wet dog...And she puts me THIRD on her list? THIRD?!?![/i] What a-[/size]

Jokes, of course I love you ;D And had I of seen it on the day, I woulda swam over and kicked your butt D<

[Cloudeh Mongoose]

Haha, Sacri would have protected me!

[» Sacrifice]

xD Ahah, the joke only works once, don't worry. Hopefully this won't come up for real. But even if it does...well, the 'rents have to sleep sometime, no? C<

=hands Dest and Moss a cookie=

Marrow isn't good for grieving members who aren't really lost, ahah. =pats as well= Of course if we had been leaving I think you would have attacked our ankles, which would have been painful. =cautious edging= I need those ankles!

O.o My poor butt. xD You'd be all strong from your swim--we could have lemon squares before the kicking--and I probably wouldn't be able to sit back down. xDD

Of course...if any of you guys leave, I'm going to have to find you down and not only nomb ankles and kick butts, but force you to watch Barney reruns =nods= That is torture enough; that dude is so scary. =shiver=

And maybe not Cloud; it would have been amusing. xDD

[Marrowbone]

Yessss, there would have been much ankle-nommage >83

*Edges away from Dest's wrath*

[H-a-w-k-i-e]

Whew. I was so traumatized reading this yesterday that I didn't post and I crossed my fingers and left my computer, hoping that it was an April Fool's joke.

Good thing that it was.

I'm getting too old for scares like this D=<

[yellow]

*eats cookie* I'm still upset but happy.

[*~ForestWind~*]

I come on here to say hello to everyone, and this is what I find?! You scared the heck out of me for a second Sacri... but I must say that was my only fool on April Fools. And I good one to say in the least. I'm glad you and Cloudy are not leaving... even though I haven't been on here in a little bit.

And why aren't I on that list?? =crosses arms= I knew you for as long as everyone else up there, and just because I have been inactive for a little while doesn't give you the right to leave out your good 'ol Forest. ;D

[Marrowbone]

Poor Hawkie, can't you see she's too old for that?! D8< And poor cookie-eating Moss. And poor, poor shocked and neglected Forest! Here, muffins for everybody!

I thought of something a little more convincing for my first post though, since some people might get tricked yet XD Man, acting is hard!