Post by Destiny on Apr 22, 2009 15:15:06 GMT -5
Yeah okay, so the title's a bit... understating. I have no idea what to do with my life anymore, when I can't even work little things out.
You heard of the movie "10 Things I Hate About You"? Well, this is a little like that, but it's things I hate in general, or rather, which are pissing me off now. And I know I don't swear often, or make it seem like I am, but frankly I think I can be forgiven on this occasion.
[li]Start simple, eh? The fact that I'm in so much bloody pain with my shoulder and back, because the muscles are frayed. And they rub like hell.
[/li][li]The fact that no one gives a damn about the above. Oh yes, I WILL go to town and walk all over to get you some stupid little thing. Tell you what, I'll catch the ambulance back, okay? I'll need it for when I collapse again.
[/li][li]I can now barely type, since my right hand is swollen, the wrist, the hand part, the little, ring and middle fingers are all both the size they should be.
[/li][li]I'm failing English, my best subject. My teacher calls it a crisis of faith, I call it a bloody miracle that I got this far.
[/li][li]My dad left. I'm not so upset about that. I know I should be, and call me what the hell you want for it, but I don't care. Now's the happiest I've seen him for like, ever. Not that I'm fine with him leaving for that reason, of course.
[/li][li]Guess I might as well tell people, since it happened so long ago. Yeah, I was abused for a long time. I've dealt with it, moved on. Still hurts to think back, so I don't. (Yes, Cloudy. That was why I hated the Concrete Angel song so much...while loving it.)
[/li][li]I never knew my father. Had to put that like that, it reminded me of Finding Nemo, when Bruce wails that exact quote. Haha, I love that film. But yeah, it's true. The "dad" I mentioned adopted me when I was 6. As did my mom (she had to), which I found pointless because she's my birth parent. So far as I know. *shifty eyes*
[/li][li]I hate the fact that I didn't know that it was different. I honestly thought all 6 year olds went through that.
[/li][li]I hate that everything falls to me. I'm 15 for God's sake. I know I'm supposed to have some responsibility, but please. I'm not supposed to do the washing, ironing, dishes, tidy the rooms, vacuum, dust, basic repairs and all the random scrabbly bits. Am I?
[/li][li]I hate how everyone naturally assumes I'm fine, when I'm obviously not.
[/li][li]I hate how it comes out when I try and tell someone, like I'm a spoilt child who wants more.
[/li][li]I hate how my personal stuff gets taken, then replaced ages later. Don't know where it goes, frankly I don't care. I just want it to stop.
[/li][li]I hate how people keep borrowing my money, despite the fact that it's for the bungee jump, for a charity.
[/li][li]I hate how I've had to go without lunch at school since I went back.
[/li][li]I hate how I'm being bullied. Simple as.
[/li][li]I hate how, whenever I speak out against things, I get shot down.
[/li][li]I hate how the only actual friend I've got has fractured her knee.
[/li][li]I hate how my supposed best friend told me to kill myself.
[/li][li]I hate how I asked for help, and someone who cared said they would help me get it. I hate how their emails never came through.
[/li][li]I hate how no one actually cares about all this crap in real life.
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Wow. I do hate a lot of things. Anyway, sorry about this rant and all. I can't open MS Word many times more, and this is the only site I actually go on anymore.
Oh, and the fact that there are 20 is purely coincedental. I didn't add any or miss any to make it decent number. It just happened. Woo. Fate.[/size]
You heard of the movie "10 Things I Hate About You"? Well, this is a little like that, but it's things I hate in general, or rather, which are pissing me off now. And I know I don't swear often, or make it seem like I am, but frankly I think I can be forgiven on this occasion.
[li]Start simple, eh? The fact that I'm in so much bloody pain with my shoulder and back, because the muscles are frayed. And they rub like hell.
[/li][li]The fact that no one gives a damn about the above. Oh yes, I WILL go to town and walk all over to get you some stupid little thing. Tell you what, I'll catch the ambulance back, okay? I'll need it for when I collapse again.
[/li][li]I can now barely type, since my right hand is swollen, the wrist, the hand part, the little, ring and middle fingers are all both the size they should be.
[/li][li]I'm failing English, my best subject. My teacher calls it a crisis of faith, I call it a bloody miracle that I got this far.
[/li][li]My dad left. I'm not so upset about that. I know I should be, and call me what the hell you want for it, but I don't care. Now's the happiest I've seen him for like, ever. Not that I'm fine with him leaving for that reason, of course.
[/li][li]Guess I might as well tell people, since it happened so long ago. Yeah, I was abused for a long time. I've dealt with it, moved on. Still hurts to think back, so I don't. (Yes, Cloudy. That was why I hated the Concrete Angel song so much...while loving it.)
[/li][li]I never knew my father. Had to put that like that, it reminded me of Finding Nemo, when Bruce wails that exact quote. Haha, I love that film. But yeah, it's true. The "dad" I mentioned adopted me when I was 6. As did my mom (she had to), which I found pointless because she's my birth parent. So far as I know. *shifty eyes*
[/li][li]I hate the fact that I didn't know that it was different. I honestly thought all 6 year olds went through that.
[/li][li]I hate that everything falls to me. I'm 15 for God's sake. I know I'm supposed to have some responsibility, but please. I'm not supposed to do the washing, ironing, dishes, tidy the rooms, vacuum, dust, basic repairs and all the random scrabbly bits. Am I?
[/li][li]I hate how everyone naturally assumes I'm fine, when I'm obviously not.
[/li][li]I hate how it comes out when I try and tell someone, like I'm a spoilt child who wants more.
[/li][li]I hate how my personal stuff gets taken, then replaced ages later. Don't know where it goes, frankly I don't care. I just want it to stop.
[/li][li]I hate how people keep borrowing my money, despite the fact that it's for the bungee jump, for a charity.
[/li][li]I hate how I've had to go without lunch at school since I went back.
[/li][li]I hate how I'm being bullied. Simple as.
[/li][li]I hate how, whenever I speak out against things, I get shot down.
[/li][li]I hate how the only actual friend I've got has fractured her knee.
[/li][li]I hate how my supposed best friend told me to kill myself.
[/li][li]I hate how I asked for help, and someone who cared said they would help me get it. I hate how their emails never came through.
[/li][li]I hate how no one actually cares about all this crap in real life.
[/li][/ul]
Wow. I do hate a lot of things. Anyway, sorry about this rant and all. I can't open MS Word many times more, and this is the only site I actually go on anymore.
Oh, and the fact that there are 20 is purely coincedental. I didn't add any or miss any to make it decent number. It just happened. Woo. Fate.[/size]